July 19, 2010

Here are a few of my thoughts and feelings today... and a little bit about what I've done this lovely day. So I was planning on waking up early, and exercising! I Slept through my alarm. Woke up by Mom's phone call at 7:00 a.m. I wasn't getting ready today obviously!!! The kids were REALLY good today, great start to the week! We had breakfast, got dressed and did Ali's hair. Watched some cartoons and played outside!! This morning the weather was AMAZING!!! I wish that everyday was like this morning. but by 1:00 it was just like any other day! :( hot and humid. We had lunch and then went bowling! Ali loveeeeees bowling and she's SO dang cute doing it! I have so much fun with her everyday! I'm so glad that I am here. My new best friend for a while is a 4 year old. But let me tell ya, she is the BEST best friend I've had!!! (besides Rachie :) ) I love her to death, I get a kick out of her.

Some of the things she has said today.....
"thank you for getting a candle in here cause it smells good."

In her prayer.... "and thank you for Me"

"Mom, you need to make me what I was hungry about."

I GOT A LETTER FROM MASEN TODAY!!!! The days that I get a letter from him are always the best. :) I love it. I can't wait for him to come home! In our last couple letters we've talked about things we've done together in the past around the 4th of July and the 24th. (since it's that time of the month again) One thing we always talk about was Last year, Rachel, Ali, Masen, Thomas and I went to the fire works at Sugar House. The family behind us were very loud about punishing their kids, it was really sad! and when we walked through the whole Bountiful parade trying to find a place to sit. because we were walking with the parade we saw the same floats the whole time! We ended up just going back to my house to get away from the heat. and swimming everyday at the pool! and lots more. we always just go down memory lane! He's doing really good, he just got transfered! Its a small town, and the branch meets in the town's furniture store because they don't have a building. How funny is that???? I just can't wait for him to come home!

Today we found a HUGE spider in the garage. I took a picture of it..... Spiders are the things that I am most scared of. I refuse to kill spiders! They creep me out, I'm lucky enough that I haven't had any in my room or bathroom..... just big beetles. yucky!!!

So my stalker has finally left me alone. I will tell the story! So there is this boy in our ward that took me out on a date last Monday! He was very interesting... the whole time he kept talking like we were "together", he's an only child (which explains ALOT), He's obsessed with his cat (that I just HAVE to meet), and he kept telling me how good I looked. VERY creepy. So anyways I was nice and told him thank you. That night is when it started. He texted me alot and called me alot, that whole week he called me EVERYDAY probably 20-30 times a day (no lie) and he would send multiple messages on facebook and to my phone. I never replied to any of them. So on Friday morning, he tried calling me again...... but I didn't answer. About an hour later he showed up at my house! I didn't answer the door because first of all I'm home alone with two kids in a place where I don't know anyone. Ali and I ran into the the computer room and looked out to see who it was and it was HIM!! He rang the door bell quite a few times and called me a few times. (I know he knew we were home because Ali was being very loud and hyper) He sat in my driveway for probably ten minutes and then left. CREEPY! Then on Sunday at church... He had his MOM come and talk to me to see what was going on between us. WOW. awkward! but I haven't heard from him since Friday, so I think he got the hint. Crazy huh???

More quotes that I LOVEEEE....
" Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we care about leaves but the truth is it's not our loss it's theirs because they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them."

"Last night I matched each star with a reason of loving you... I was doing great until I ran out of stars."

"You want me to act like we've never kissed, you want to forget; pretend we never met, and I've tried and tried, but I haven't yet... you walk by and I fall to pieces."

"I asked you if I was pretty, you said no. I asked you if I was fat, you said yes of course. I asked you if you wanted to be with me forever, you said no. I asked you ifyou would cry if I walked away, you said no. I had heard to much and needed to leave, as I walked away... you grabbed my arm and told me to stay. you said... your not pretty your beautiful. The only thing fat or big about you is your heart. I don't want to be with you forever I need to be with you forever. And baby I wouldn't cry if you walked away I would die."

"and I promise someday you'll regret losing me... you'll look back and say 'damn... that girl really did love me."

"I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place and I spill things alot. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have a broken heart. my friends and I sometimes fight and maybe somedays nothing goes right. But when I think about it and take a step back, I remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe just maybe.. I like being unperfect..."

"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go."

"When I see you smile and know it's not for me, that's when I will miss you most."

"someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for now, Laugh at the confusion, Smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason."

So today I did allll of my laundry, cleaned my room, washed my sheets and actually put them back on my bed, organized a little bit more, cleaned my room, and watched my favorite show (the bachelorette)
TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY!!! :)